Depression is feeling like you’ve lost something, but you have no idea when or where you lost it. Then one day you realize what you’ve lost is yourself.
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I’m trying
I’m really trying
But I keep failing
I keep falling down
I keep breaking
I keep fucking things up
And I don’t know what to do against it
I don’t know how to stop it
I am slipping away
And can’t hold on to anything
Because there is nothing in my reach
(written by me without thinking, just crying and panicking)
I’m so afraid
I have been fighting for so long
And i really don’t know how many times i can get up
It feels like i can’t move anymore
As if every time i fell down another bone broke
And now i’m laying here
Completely broken
Not capable to move
Screaming from the pain
They are there
But they can’t get to me
They just see me there
But can’t do anything
And i’m so afraid
(written by me without thinking, just crying and panicking)
The only reason that I’m still alive is because I care more about my loved ones not getting hurt than I care about myself being alive with this endless horrible pain. Don’t want to hurt them in any way, even if that means I have to walk through hell for the rest of their lives.